The work has been fun and interesting.
The workshops have been successful.
The kids have been great.
The educators and parents have been great.
I have been having the time of my life.
I've also been mixing it up a bit.
After thirty years, I feel like I know what works and what doesn't. I feel like I have a good handle on my material and what I want out of it. I feel like I'm pretty good at selecting stories and composing story sets.
What I am discovering is that I seem to have moved into one of those periods where things are bubbling up to the top. Just as I get comfortable, I begin rearranging the room. I'm starting to dare myself about the work just to see what happens.
I am trotting out new material and reworking old material just trying to see how it hits an audience . I'm learning new introductions, and different ways to work folktales and personal narrative together so they speak to various populations. I'm finding nuances, connections, and coming up against ideas that have never occurred to me.
I'll be out in California on my birthday, and in the schools. I don't know if I'll get a chance to visit....but I might.
I also managed to secure a literary agent, and I am now deep in edits for my first novel. Somehow, I overcame my unwillingness to admit that I really want to be writing more for a living, and someone out there said they'd give me a chance.
I'm equal parts terrified, excited, and still in disbelief as I try to reshape a novel for the real world and not my own enjoyment.
The last few weeks have been quite a wild ride.
One of my adopted ten rules of thumb for the artist is, "If you keep hitting the target you are probably too close."
It is hard to move that target because you might miss...but if you don't move it, you don't get anywhere as an artist.
Today I'd planned to write about being honest with yourself about booking shows so that your first set is as crisp as your last. What is the largest and smallest number of sets you can do in a day and deliver the best quality and why?
I will blog about that next week, but I am feeling pretty transformed about the work I'm doing, and I am finding it hard to be practical!
So, I will continue to throw pasta agains the wall and see what sticks, and hope I come out of it better able to do my job.
I wonder if this has something to do with turning fifty this year?
My kids both in college?
Feeling like I just hit a new phase in my life?
Watching my nieces and nephews get older?
Celebrating my thirtieth year as a professional storyteller?
Ultimately, it doesn't matter. I moved the target. I mean to spend a decade or more trying to perfect my shot.